It's all a fantasy
It's all a fucking dream
An intolerable nightmare
I'm unable to awake from.

Too beautiful to let go
Too horrifying to turn away
These feelings inside of me
Slowly ripping my body and soul to shreds.

How could this be true
How could I be seeing what's real
How could my heart feel so sure
When everything else
Is so fucking wrong.

You were just bring you
I was just being me
Falling hopelessly for you
Landing in a deep precipice of love and despair.

My eyes unwillingly distorting reality
My body and soul never truly free
From it's disatrous wishings and wantings.

I can't let it go
I can't let you go
I can't free myself
I can't will myself awake.

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